Growing up

And so.. 


From malaysia, to uk, us and aussie, to china, and to macau.. Never did it cross my mind that i would finally end up working in singapore.. 


I probably have too high hopes at first. But i reckon i could've made it if i started applying earlier. If it wasn't for the stupid college due date, i'd never settle down in singapore.. Fate fate~


It's a really really long story how situations, decisions and emotions change throughout these few months, and it was torturing. I guess at every stage of life, we're deemed to have different things to worry about. But so far, this stage has been the toughest. No doubt at all, the toughest. First step to working life, adulthood. Im sure u get what i mean if u've been through it. Or if u haven't, u will. 


I guess this feeling is called growing up. 




Some choices are so difficult to make, that the stress kills.
Some decisions are not up to u, but u so desperately want to have a say in it.
Sometimes, selfishness can bury your senses, and totally change u into another person.
Sometimes, u just have to buck up and do the right thing, no matter how much it stings.
Sometimes, u're so worn out of waiting and hoping, that u break down and just let fate drag u on.
Sometimes, u realize u cant bear losing someone when u're about to be apart, and u can only believe.
Sometimes, when u give up hope, help comes your way, but it's too late, and it only brings frustration.
Sometimes, u realize u made a wrong decision n u can't change it, and u can only take it as an experience.




Well, well.. 


Now im pretty sure this whole stage is called growing up. 


And im pretty sure i have. Hmm..