Closure. And cheers to new beginnings.

Understanding comes with time and experience. She didn't know this. 

Over the past year, it felt like she'd grown up 5 years. She used to live in a world so tiny, he and only he, mattered. But since that day, her world was opened up to a whole lot more than it used to be. 

People say that breakups are always not one side's fault. She agrees but disagrees. And then only now, she finally knew, he wasn't entirely wrong. She has her faults without knowing, though not knowing is not any excuse. He wasn't any better, but surely he knew better. About personal space, about trust, about independence and so much more, she now nods in silence whenever what he said rings in her head. He had tried to teach her, to no avail of course. And this was her lesson. A lesson is called a lesson for a reason. Well, she has learned to forgive herself the moment these senses come to her. After all, she somehow knew it would all make sense one day if she was patient enough.

As for him, whatever is done is the past and forgiven. It sure is true that his love wasn't as much as hers, but she knows now it's as difficult in his shoes, if not more. Time and experience sure showed her that. So to that one last chance, she wants to thank him, for being kind enough to feel he probably owes her at least that try--that try to give in full effort to love her once, and letting her go harsh enough after knowing he did his best. She thanks him for his last efforts, because she now knows it must not have been easy.

All in all, she is still glad she met him. Three years is not long, but he is part of her growth. He has given her so much to feel, from love to hate, from good to bad, from wrong to right, so much. He is the reason she stepped out of home, and started her journey. If it wasn't for him, she would never end up in this place where she is now, so contented with the place, her job and the people surrounding her. 

He might not have been the ideal one, but he sure was an epic one.





I have a confession to make.

She, is me.

And I'm ready to be friends with you. Whenever you're ready. =)

JT

宁愿爱上一个不能拥有的人
也不要拥有一个不能爱上的人

and so
the mind lost to the heart
and he was set free

同理心

做人  就要像人一样的活着
要有慈悲心  廉恥心  孝心
更重要的  要有同理心

要有自知之明  却戒对号入座

人与人的信任
要给  可也要懂得慎重的给

懂的  可以越多越好
可是说的  要越少越好

要以同理心善待人
可勿让人因缺同理心而以怨报徳



_____

阵阵的头疼  断断续续的持续了三天
加上之前的种种怪症状
最近身体是怎么了

挥霍

“被爱是奢侈的幸福
  而你    依然挥霍着”

cny huat ahhh!!

omgomgomg... emoness lai liao~~
now is a bad time to watch 星光 final epi...
so emotional la all of them thank mum thank dad thank family back home..
wuwuuuuwuuuuuu~~~
i wan go home also ahhh
2nd cny not home..
so near yet so far ><

k..
back to reality..
i am ok leh actually really..
not crying just drop i think 5 drop of tears only la..
lalalaaa...

happy cny ppl~
huat ahhhh!!!

rooming & ralph

happy day
(can skip this post actually, i just feel like documenting it..)

stress at work today..
got caught by surprise to do rooming in 10mins after informing me
with the most experienced one n plenty of other seniors watching
tongue tied n stomach tied
messed up alot and gave a whole lot of wrong info but still got quite nice n unexpected feedback
yikess...
they're too nice la..
gotta catch up n improve a lot.. aza aza aza!! >_<

went to movies too..
wreck it!!!
quite childish but i like the candy rush place..yumm..
post xmas party aside, this is the first outing time with colleagues eh..
not bad..bonding bonding...

side note:
it's not easy to find a job which is so stressful yet at the same time so enjoyable.. challenging n interesting... really really really wanna do this well...finally got this feeling from a job..eeeeeksss!! ^^



btw..just wanna share this.. 1:54



你还是要幸福
你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕
别跟着我铭心刻骨

i now free u from all guilts.

>_< wish wish wish

2012 xmas wish 

+

2013 new year wish

只希望能尽快掌握这份工的上下左右前后内外

看人家驾轻就熟的真的好爽

懵懵懂懂的好难过啊 >_<

甘叭爹~~~~~~~~

Sherine's convo

just some photos of the day to share.. photo credit: Jason Chu~

 congratz dear~

the mighty photographer of the day, carrying the heavy camera n big bunch of flower around..

her family n extended family ^^

hehe im spotlight =P

one last photo of me n dear~

朋友,
我知道你的原则,
不关你的事你不会干涉.
只要你有能力帮的你就会帮,
剩余的你会让他自己判断自己决定,
即使你知道是错,
不关你的事你一概不会干涉.

可是这事太撤,
我没办法听了就算.
怎么可以对和错模糊不清?
怎么可以拿生命开玩笑?
即使是不认识的人我也会看不过去,
更何况这是曾被我当家人的人...
我不能接受这样破坏规矩,
也不能接受把生命当儿戏.

你有你的原则我不是怪你帮他.
只是我没办法知道当不知道,
他怎样错也就让他去.
虽然不关我的事,
但我做不到那样.

所以,

对不起,
我说听了算,
可是我食言了.
违反我的原则我真的做不到.

有故事的人

赖淞凤 - 问/陈淑桦


赖淞凤 - 真实/张惠妹


赖淞凤 - 错的人/萧亚轩


有故事的人
特别的迷人 =)

加油赖淞凤~！

Embrace it.

最近
身边不少朋友失恋
也不少朋友遇见感情问题
就来问我和向我倾诉
第七个了  女的也是男的也是

(我不懂是给了人家什么样的印象
我又不是感情老手
虽然是经历了很让我大开眼界的感情)

因为这样
我看到了不同的人
处理不同的问题的态度
我其实不知道有没有对的方法
可是我相信有对的态度
我尊重勇敢面对问题的人
我尊重勇敢面对失恋的人

有个失恋的朋友笑着说

可以品尝沦陷的美丽，但是别丧失自己的灵魂

=) 我就尊重这种态度

这本来就是个自然的过程
有快乐就有伤心
又开始就有结束
你会喜欢会珍惜快乐和开始的过程
那又何必逃避结束的失落
何必在结束的时候  希望从来没开始过
这些也是一个过程
不是不让你伤心失落
也不用你怎么去珍惜这个过程
但至少勇敢的走过去  勇敢的感受它
Don't need to love it, but embrace it.

p/s: 这是写给妳的，加油 =)

p/p/s: 今早的梦境很美，是不是准备好了？=)

truth

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Thank you.

Because of you, I learned the strength I possess which I never knew. 
Because of you, I learned the darkness of the world and of people, and I learned to live with it and call it life.

So, thank you.

friends worth keeping

This is my last weekend in Malaysia before heading off. I had a good day, all positive energy surrounding me. I even cooked! It's so once in a blue moon thing. But I have to say it's a little weird, the only pasta I have at home is vegeroni, and the only canned sauce i have is carbonara, it usually doesn't go together but oh well..

And if you noticed, my carbonara sauce has eggs in it hahahahhaa.... I just like adding eggs in whatever I cook lalalaaa.. Yummy nonetheless.. I am not lying.

Oh and I went jogging with the sister. Also once in a blue moon thing. I haven't jogged for more than half a year! Unhealthy me >_<  I use to be able to jog for quite a long journey back in high school. But I suck now. Big time.

For late dinner/supper, I went to try out the newly opened In House Cafe at Kota Damansara with the lovely couple, J&S. Nice place, nice environment, really nice food, with super nice company. =) I just wish the wifi was better.

Time, distance and life in general tend to pull people apart, but through all that, you get to see who stays and who are those worth keeping. I'm definitely gonna miss you guys a whole lot after leaving. <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp">

And you girl, we are very different in personality and yet we could click, I treasure that. =) Thanks for being my listener and in turn, 'I give you permission to bore me.' Anytime. I meant that when I said it. *winks*

'farewell?' u ask.

i really want that farewell from you, but like last time, it's confusing, and a little hurting. i can only do so much of confusion and hurt for now. 6 years has changed us.

so yes. but no thanks.

Falling in place

So, since last time, so much has changed, but only for the better.

It's funny when you update your blog so seldom and when you come back to it and reading the previous post, you feel that you can tell that previous you so many things, like 'Oh screw those worries, things may seem bad but they will turn out just fine.'

I'm finally seeing things ahead clear out from the mist.
Interviews, check.
Acquire offers, check.
Nice position nice pay nice benefits nice company nice location, check.
Work permit, check.
Background check, check.
Medical check, soon.
Relocation, soon.
Start new job, soon! Yikes! =D

It's really miraculous seeing how things work out.
Beginning of the year, I was still planning to stay in Macau for him till the end of the year. Half a year ago, confused if I should stay for him or head home for my own. Few months ago, still jobless and feeling a tinie bit unsure if my decision to leave was right.
Now to think back, I was lucky to follow my own heart, and not stay and waste half a year more. I might not have got this job now, had I stayed, for unworthy reasons.
How miraculous, the pieces falling into its righteous place. =)



I'm going to Singapore again.
With my mood like this song above.

And this time, I'm gonna make it right. Make it count.
(if you know what I mean)

迷茫

Emotional Saturday. Off day spent home should be relaxing, but I feel so stressed out. Really should be sleeping by now but thoughts are bugging me so much. So much thoughts.

24 is not young. Am I on track? What should be my focus? Am I at the right place right now, are my plans planned right? Decisions, decisions, decisions. Courage, courage, courage. Motivation, faith, action. Where and when can I find that contented feeling that says, Yes this is my life's passion. The feeling that confirms me being right on track.

Just last night, another wave of motivation killer hit me. Really wish to put myself in their shoes and see if they're sure of where they're going or just giving up on here.

Alrighty, enough of stressful thoughts. Picture time!

Great fun last night.

Ok gotta go. Sleep time. Wake again at 6am fml...

柯劲腾

那些年
那一年
如果
她有对自己坦白一点
有勇气承认自己的感觉
或是
他有坚持相信自己感觉到的她
而不是相信她口中的否定
或许现在...
嗯

我的柯劲腾啊

你过得好吗?

The One That Got Away

i heard this song a few months ago

not from the original singer Katy Pery

but Sam Tsui's cover in youtube

i liked it, but then i forgot about it

but yesterday i came across this other cover of the same song

by Tiffany Alvord and Chester See

it was so captivating.. it just... sucked me in...

i think i replayed it about 20 times already since yesterday

check it out. so awesome.

i havent seen their videos before this one

but this one is really great

Tiffany has a sweet voice n such beautiful eyes, see 0:18-0:22

Chester, sexy beard and cute hehe, see 0:26-0:29

and yeah my god he has a sexy voice

here's Sam Tsui's version, if u're interested

notice him pronunciating his last name as "Shoo-ey"

all the while i thought it was "Sui" like beautiful in hokkien lol

wont put Katy Pery's original here coz it sux and i didnt even finish listening to it oops =P

p/s: 

i think im gonna start blogging again after such a long time abandoning this place, and i dunno why i write this here coz there's probably no more readers anyway since it's all dusty and covered with spiderwebs already. so ok goodnight bye~

那个曾经很重要的人

他  不久前改名了

以前的名字  不算是什么特别好听的名字

但那两个字  是挺特别的

曾经是把那两个字  盲目的写了好几百遍

在课本上  笔记本上  课室桌面上  厕所镜子上  巴士窗边框上

那时  无意间看到那两个字  也会心跳加速那么一点点

对我  那两个字是温暖的  

而现在换了两个字  是冷冰冰的

就像换了个人

或许真的是换了个人吧

他  已不是以前那个他了

=)

是放下了没错  但

是会有那么一点点惦记着以前那个他

想一想  都过了三年了 =)

@17/11/2007